The little tidbits in my life.
So my dad has decided to undergo the suggested operation.
It is good in the sense that it was what I’d have liked for him since he is able and deemed healthy to do so.
That said it is a tough thing for him to go through. No matter his choice of next path, all roads are life changing, so the decision is certainly not easy.
Hopefully the surgery goes well as expected.
The US and Israel have begun preemptive strikes on Iran.
This was somewhat expected considering the recent military buildup and warnings.
Gold and silver will certainly spike upwards.
So will oil obviously.
The stock markets will tank come Monday but there is a bit of dependency on whether there is any deescalation tomorrow.
Always notable that Trump always starts market tanking shit on Saturdays so I would not be surprised if they get back to the negotiating table before Monday’s open.
Let’s see what’s going to happen.
Ok so here’s my goal in the medium term since I am getting on with age after all.
I hope to retire by age 55.
I hope to have at least $2.5m in liquid investible assets at 55.
So there, I said it.
Now to work towards this goal.
Been generally feeling down lately.
Because of all this that’s going on.
Yet it feels like this is going to be a huat year for me.
Alas but huat is not equal to health.
Sigh.
I know it is the circle of life.
But why now?
Ok.
We are down to choosing the right ENT Surgeon.
Or at least it’s my father’s choice.
Went for the prognosis with mum and dad.
Dad’s situation isn’t the best.
As in the choices that he has are difficult.
Yet there are silver linings but still.
And things could deteriorate rapidly if he delays or wait.
As his son there are clear choices I’d make for him driven by urgency and wanting him to live as long as healthy life possible.
But having slept on all that we had to soak in yesterday, if I put myself in his shoes, if a much tougher choice of the major procedure, with lots of high risk elements, with not sufficient guarantees that a life changed, will make him happy.
I feel like in the end, the choice is his and he will need to stick by it.
Sigh.
Special mention to the doctors and nurses and administrative staff of CGH.
For a public hospital that operates as a not-for-profit, it is a wonder these noble staff do what they do with so much compassion. They all deserve the good things in life.
I haven’t done this very often.
Spend personal time just me and my dad.
I picked him up and the first thing he asked was whether I remember the last time we spent together just two of us.
Maybe it was one of the trips with just me and him when I was in primary or secondary school. Krakatoa? Some kelong fishing trip in Malaysia?
That’s how long ago it was since it was mano a mano.
Anyway it was great chatting about everything under the sun from 9pm to around 1130pm.
We parked and set our picnic chairs facing the ECP sea and just talked for hours.
CPF. Retirement. My ambitions. My dreams. Awareness of who I need to take care of. Teapots. Auctions. The brain. Reminiscing. Our memories. Family dynamics.
Perhaps will try to do another round where we go jog our memories at Old House next.
It’s living life by these moments that matter.
The year has started…off.
I do not think I will be having a happy or prosperous year ahead.
I seriously doubt I will achieve much of what I want to achieve this year, notably will not travel much.
Sad.
:’(
God bless us all.
What I should do RIGHT NOW
This is key.
1. Shift to DEFENSIVE MODE (6–12 weeks)
This aligns perfectly with your current pillar.
2. Reintroduce movement before performance
Even 30 mins indoors counts.
For you, movement fixes mood before logic returns.
3. Avoid big irreversible decisions
Not the time for:
Short-term restraint = long-term win.
4. Family duty now is karmically “correct”
Supporting your family is the way to go.
In BaZi logic, it actually:
The important reassurance
This phase does NOT say:
It says:
“Slow the flow, tighten the channel, and you’ll move faster again soon.”
What’s really happening (non-mystical explanation)
You’re in a temporary depletion state:
That combination directly correlates with:
This is biology + psychology, not cosmic punishment.