Sunday, May 30, 2004

The Melancholic Death of Oyster Boy

haha. i was given this book to read this morning and its so funny. its written by tim burten(from nightmare before christmas and big fish fame?) and its super funny and whacky i was having a ball just reading. life here is great. i don't even know where to start. okie lets just recount from where i left off. does anyone think this is all too draggy and longwinded? if u do then dun read lor! haha.

okie so yesterday was another lobo day. woke super early at 7am and after breakfast went to find things for myself to do. notebly go and find other staff and ask if they need help. ended up helping chris miller, the camp nurse(he's supposed to be the coolest guy in camp before i arrived...hehe), andrew, the maintenance head, and ranson, the facilities head or smtg lidat. was doing boliao things lah. but i guess what's important is to give the let people around here know that i'm useful and not some leech. so for the whole day till dinner time i ended up picking up trash, cutting up boxes, mending a fence, and disposing of paper trash. haha was quite fun.

now one thing to take note was that yesterday's weather was way cool. not cold, and i found myself wearing a tshirt and sports pants whereever i went. super shiok can finally wear so little.

at night i was invited to the kiva gym to play basketball with some of the older staff. and it seems like people are really taking on to me. people are coming up to talk alot more to me and blah, saying i got game, i play hard blah blah blah. so i just tell tehm the same stuff they wanna hear and blah...i think americans super love to be praised. so the more you praise them the more they think you're cool. especially when its obvious that i play better but i remain modest. haha. okie that out of point. but really the staff here are the best man. super easy to warm up with and everybody treats each other like good friend and all. so its really good.

okie so today was a totally different story.

in the morning i got the chance to go denver with brandy and michelle. they're really great and i really appreciate them letting me tag along. anyway it was still sunny on our drive to denver. we had to cross a mountain to the other side just to reach the highway to denver. whole journey took us about 2hrs. denver's pretty huge city and i think there's quite alot to see. but this tmie around we had no time since we had to go pick up another staff member from the airport. so when we finally picked him up, we went to walmart!!! yay. now walmart here is like carrefour in singapore, only much much bigger. and u really can get anything and everything here. so the first thing i when to grab were hiking boots. in the end i got myself a good pair for only us$40 and a pair of trainers for us$15 and then got myself some moisturizer, socks and a nice brush for my lovely hair. haha. then we had subway for lunch. its more expensive here than in singapore. the prices are almost the same 'cept here its in us dollars.

okie so finally we're on our way back, and as we start going up the mountains, guess what? it begins to rain...then this super huge fog starts to develop across the mountains where we were heading. as we got through the fog, it got thicker and thicker so we had to drive slower and slower. the know what? the rain turned to snow...at first a little bit by bit the rain still splattering on the windshield, then after awhile to more sound liaoz. the snow just blows by. so cool!!!! and cold!!!!

so this went on throughout the mountain drive so we thought it was just a mountain thing but nooooo....turns out its snowing in camp chief ouray too!!! wow!!! fantastic and it was a snow storm, so the ground and the trees got white super fast. so cool!!!! its amazing how we can have sun one day and then snow the next. wow.

okie so next up was dinner. today we were all invited to maryanne and andrew(they're married)'s house which was near the lodge, for dinner. it was a byob which mean bring your own bbq. cool! haha. i didn't have anything to bring but i asked molly to bring buy me smtg. and of all meats u can find she bought me crummy hamburgers haha. but thanks anyway. so we had a bbq going outside where it was freezing cold(was snowing tons!) and the food eating session inside. there were quite alot of people, most of whom i already know, and everyone brought their own food to be bbqed. so cool! haha. and we had a ball talking and stuff, and as of now i lost count how many times i replied with the same answer that singapore's a 17hr plane ride followed by a 20hr train ride from chicago. wow long journey eh? yeah, long journey. *brief silence* cool!

haha people here say cool and sweet and great and lovely ALL THE TIME. its like a must say when someone tells u smtg. haha so i do the same. and i think i say it real well cos most of them say i speak really well and they can immediately understand what i'm saying as compared to previous asian counsellors whose english is terrible. hmm. makes me feel good about myself. haha. after dinner we all went to play basketball again. i think playing with them bonds us all.

well i havent received any gossips lately? hopefully someone could drop me an update about hte latest things that're going on back home. will almost cfm reply wan. haha.

kie anyway i'll stop here liao. take care everyone.

Friday, May 28, 2004

Camp Chief Ouray

aloha everyone!!! i finally got to use the net. its so hard and painful to be searching so hard but being unable to find it. it the end i really got desperate and here i am in my camp director's office using his computer. i think my camp director should be a nice guy bah. i haven't met him yet, but the rest of the office staff seems to be really excited that i'm here. hmm. i dun even know where to begin from where i left off...

okie first off, travelling america alone for this trip has been amazing. i think i've felt more emotions in the last 3 days than the last few years combined. the people are great and the weather's almost fine(hmm,more about that later if i remember). things are running pretty smoothly up till now and with the exception of a my stoopid m1 phone having no autoroam(even though i applied for it), and so little internet access opportunities, i think the rest of hte trip has been super duper wooper good so far...and hopefully it'll only get better.

okie now from where i left off.

let's start with chicago. i'm pretty lucky i had jing jing and carol with me on my flight because when we reached o'hare airport, ther iccp people who were supposed to pick us up were like gonna be 5 hours late. then once more we got lucky because the singaporean contingent flying korea airways arrived an hour after we did and we met up. then from there we looked so obviously like camp counsellors that other international camp counsellors camp to join us!!! quite a funny sight, but the ice-breakers were done before we even left the airport. my group in chicago had like 6 singaporeans, 4 malaysians, 6 ukrainians, 4 danes, 3 mexicans, 3 moldovans, 2 columbians, 2 taiwanese, 2 ugandans, and then one each from thailand, france, brazil, paraguay, and india. and we all knew each other before even leaving the airport. so cool.

from the airport we were taken to camp henry horner in chicago where we setteld down have lunch and bonded. everyone of the counsellors are really great and friendly. we were lucky also becasue our singaporean contingent was super friendly too like everytime i make a new friend i'd drag her to the other singaporeans and introduce her and so on and so forth. so it kinda helped with getting to know everyone. at night, we had our cultural orientation even though we were all super tired. it was fun seeing everyone in funny garb and singing folk song and all.

next day it was time to leave. i realise that most wilderness ymca camps have little or pathetic internet acces or even payphones. i think they try to limit people from using these instruments to call for help haha. okie that wasn't so funny but dunno why americans laugh loudest at such statements.

anyway i was brought to union station in chicago where we were allocated our train rides. i was to travel alone to granby, colorado for 20hrs by train. no kidding. butthe good thing was that the train ride(am-trak) was really comfy. its sad because when the train first left off i was so tired that i fell asleep, so by the time i woke up in the middle of the night, i realised i missed the sights of iowa. and then in the night going through nebraska i couldn't see shite in that darkness. still the people there are sibeh boliao but friendly. bo tai bo ji will talk to you and ask you where you're going and they do that to everyone and anyone. and they arn't shy about telling total stragners about their family problems and all that. like this one guy who was going around telling everyone he was taking the train to california to run away from his stalker wife! haha. the stories the americans tell mirror those of edward bloom from big fish. its damn dua kang but damn interesting. haha. so i just listen to everything with a pinch of salt and smile and laugh when i see fit. haha. they're not that smart though.

anyway the train ride through the colorado rocky mountains was fantastic. we were going through tunnels and tunnels and mountains towering over us and all, and all the americans were cramming into the viewing gallery(me the kiasu singaporean got a really good seat early on liao on teh advice of an old lady). to catch the sights. beautiful.

okie so i finally arrived at granby. the train station is damn cool. its like a little house in the middle of nowhere and there was no one manning the station. so the camp chief ouray staff came late and i found myself taking silly pix of the little house and me. interesting. so finally this woman cindy picks me up and drives me to camp. so i figure first day should make a good impression so i said i wasn't tired(even after the long ride: wow, chris you're good!) and helped out around camp. the camp's really in a chao ji super duper ulu place. and the staff are mainly interns and counsellors from all over the united states. the super sad thing is that i'm the only international camp counsellor amongst all the locals. so a simple introduction the whole day would go like: hi i'm chris, from singapore! and the reply would be: wow that's like sweet, dude! and then i'll say: yeah, cool! and that was it. haha. nothing to say liao. they must be thinking wah lao bloody chinese can speak good english? anyway they got warmer later on, the staff like michelle brandy corny kevin and the jamaican michelle really take care of me. i think they also know i feel lonely. like during lunch and dinner they just keep introducing me to the whole world and the conversation above keeps repeating itself. but after awhile everyone gets friendly. asks how singapore's like and all, then i also dowan to say so much cos i gotta do a presentation later so i dun wanna exhaust all my trump cards. haha.

at night i was invited to play soccer in the gym. i was glad to accept the invitation since it seemed fun and americans seemingly can't kick their best friend's balls if their lives depended on it. but turns out everyone's not too bad but naturally i was comfy and it was really easy to make friends through football. well they call it soccer here. and i also got to know alot of the snow mountain ranch staff which is just a 5min walk from my camp and they got like tons and tons of international staff. so fun. but they all do the boliao jobs like cleaning the kitchen, maintenance, giftshop salesperson and blah. sibeh boh wan lah.

*pant* okie the altitude here is very high so i walk abit also will pant. playing soccer is tough, one spurt and that's it must stop and take breath and pant like dog. jialatz. but hopefully it'll get better. michelle says by the time i leave camp i'll be fit as superman.

the weather here's super jialatz. you can get several different types of conditions in a single afternoon. just today alone, i got caught in super hot sun, rain, and even hail. thats like frozen rain. and yesterday it supposedly snowed in the night. the walk down to my camp director's office is a long, dark and chilly one but i guess it's all worthwhile to be able to use the net.

okie lah i think i ought to stop here. hoping to here gossip from home. been super out of touch with the outside world and of course singapore and hall. the life here is super laidback, no rush for anything. food's american-style, i'm okie with it and i like it too because i'm forced to eat my veggies just so i wouldn't constipate. and veggies here come in the form of salad which is diy and very nice. so i end up eating only lotsa lettuce but with lotsa different types of sauce. i think i've already picked up the american accent. it wasn't too difficult and the americans pick it up right away as compared to when i speak normally they gotta come closer to listen again. so always just speak loud and slow and they'll geddit.

here they're also super confident in everything they do. dunno how to do also gek seh know how to do, then when they do poorly they still praise each other for the right spirit and blah. takes getting used to but as long as you get things done with integrity and honesty the americans don't falult you even if what you do fucks up. they encourage alot of failing and trying and even on the train every mother's son has a story to tell about their super mega failures(and i mean really dumb stuff man - like this guy who said he bought a car and sold it a week later for a huge loss just because he decided he wanted a boat instead!) haha.

okie lah shall end here liao. everyone reading this please take good care and update me on any happening things if possible yeah. miss everyone back home and miss the singapore life.

to mark and joe, whatever you camp instructor tells you to bring or whatever advice were given in our smu orientation, its all super duper wooper relevant, so read through that a few more times.

take care everyone!

Tuesday, May 25, 2004

Leaving On A Jetplane

haven`t been blogging much the past coupla days. been super busy packing up for campusa. i can`t say i`m terribly excited though, what with moving out of hall and certain events that happened during our final cheonging session before i left. kinda leaves me more worried about what`s left behind than where i`m heading.

still. here i am. on my way to the 5mth adventure i set out to plan since january. on the bright side, its finally become reality unfolding and i hope this will trully be a memorable and perhaps even life-altering(it better be in a good way!) experience.

i`m at narita airport, tokyo, japan right now. beginning my 5hr transit time blogging to one and all. temperature`s normal air-con, and scenary@s nothing much to speak of. am with jing jing and carol, with whom i took the flight with. they`re pretty nice people, jing jing`s from nie, sporty and chatty gal so there`s pretty much to yak about since we met. carol`s 29 and working already and she`s already assumed what looks like an older sister role. nice to talk to as well and better yet speaks super duper wooper fluent japanese(super impressed) which helps get us around alot. i hope my fluent english will help when we get to the states.

the flight here wasn`t exactly the most comfortable. 6hrs. i tried to sleep but its hard to do so in a sitting position even with the seat inclined to its maximum. in the end jing jing moved to the row behind us which was empty, thereby freeing the middle seat between carol and i. and i curled up on her empty seat like a cold puppy. nice of carol to tahan facing my smeely feet. as much as i didn`t think i had good sleep, both carol and jing jing agree that i sleep like a log. a very dead log. so much so that i missed breakfast completely and the stewardess had to leave a note informing me to inform them when i`ve awoken. haha. and carol couldn`t go to the toilet just because she felt i was sleeping too comfortably and didn`t want to wake me(and THAT`S why i don`t take the window seat). breakfast totally sucked. they served porridge and exactly two mouthfuls of soba. tasted like plastic, but i finished them just because i was hungry. least they gave nice yoghurt.

last night the family sent me off. along with chun and jinde. nice of them to come. though its hard to juggle friends and family especially in burger king. which is why i don`t like people sending me off. ma was a weeping mess. haiz, hate it when females cry. haha. but yeah i promise to take care of myself, ma.

oh well, i`m going for breakfast with jing jing and carol now. will tryta blog as much as possible to keep evryone updated about my current status. i don`t think i`ll be blogging much once i get to camp though. so will just blog as much as i can while i can. everyone do feel free to update me on current events via the comments page yeah?

meanwhile take care everyone. narita airport is nice, but not as nice as changi.

Friday, May 21, 2004

Closure

just met up with prof chan just now.

he came down to confirm with me some of the details regarding the experimental rig. think he was trying too hard to end our student/prof relationship on a good note. we spent more time talking about my trip. told me not to worry about my fyp grade, will definitely pass(which i suppose is good enough for me), what's important is what i do after i graduate and going on such a trip is a very good start, colorado nice place, volunteerism will go a long way helping my career...and so on and so forth. i don't think he's ever been this nice to me ever before. his last words were that if i needed any help or references don't hesitate to look him up. somehow i got a feeling he'll be looking to me for help about the rig more than i will need his. but what the heck, a good note to end my campus life nonetheless.

also a relieving sense of closure to know that i wouldn't fail my fyp.

clearing up room now. final move back home tomorrow morning. tonight gonna party hard.

countdown to campusa: 3 days

Thursday, May 20, 2004

Pride Reclaimed

just came back from ippt. earned back the $200 that i missed out on last year. surprisingly managed 10 pull-ups. yay. went with fitness freak lincoln. whatever i do he does better. MUCH better. but what the hey, always good to have company for these kinda things. results as follows:

sit-up
me: 40
fitness freak: 40

standing broad jump
me: 250cm
fitness freak: 260cm

pull-ups
me: 10
fitness freak: 12

shuttle run
me: 9.0s
fitness freak: 8.6s

2.4km run
me: 10:54min
fitness freak: 9:25min

haha.

moved out 2/3s of the things in my room liao. hostel room looks pretty empty now. released my bitch into the nanyang lake. giving most furniture away. either tom or saturday will be the final round of shifting. bloody tough work. handed over fyp stuff to yuan chuan liaoz. tomorrow final handing of my hard-bound fyp report and then i'm done with ntu liaoz. yay.

oooh. cuz my nokia 5210 is not a tri-band phone, i had to change it so went out and got myself a samsung v200!!! wheeee...so cool camera phone, spent whole day taking pix of the whole world. bought it at taka m1 shop for $338 when the advertised price was $388! haha the staff made a mistakeso i save $50. hooray. went out with leon fiona mulian chun yesterday too, ate at taka's pasta cafe.

day before went shopping with joe and mark. went to beach road to buy our gear. got myself a good backpack at a good price of $170 (u.p.$249), then got other things like jungle hat, poncho, inflatable pillow and a zero-degree sleeping bag ($38) for the trip. all quite good buys after good and sound bargaining. joe thinks i'm damn auntie. haha. hey, if got talent then must make use of it mah...

tomorrow hopefully will go cheong with the lot of them before i fly off on monday.

countdown to campusa: 4 days

Tuesday, May 18, 2004

Rush Rush

been too busy to blog lately. so busy in fact, then when i logged on just now, my homepage was gone, just like mentioned in john's blog.

anyway it's really been quite a while sine last i blogged.

on saturday we had the campusa orientation at smu. it's good to be able to put a face to the email correspondents in my may 25th departure group. got to know quite a few of them. in all there're 10 of us heading to chicago on may 25th, of which i'm the only guy. sadly, my theory in the previous blog regarding chio bus seems valid. mark joe and i got split into different groups during the orientation, and we were made to play silly ice-breakers. silly not because i've played them all before nor hat they were unnecessary, but silly because they were inappropriate and ill-managed. i mean, the ice-breaker version of rock-paper-scissors(wizard-giant-elf) played under the searing afternoon sun? allthis before we even got ourselves aquianted in our groups? so silly.

but still ultimately the aim to get to know those leaving the same day was finally achieved. and since they're all pretty nice people, the day didn't end on too bad a note. there's another 3 other girls taking the same flight as i am(the jal one) while another 6 are flying by korean airways. and we'll all be meeting up again during the orientation in chicago.

sunday was the alumni beach volleyball outing in sentosa. was quite fun, attended by quite alot of people though mostly frm my block and the alumni committee. went early to book a nice spot on the beach(turned out to be the other extreme end of palawan beach). we had myself thomas mark lincoln adrian lichun fina and xiuwen. played volleyball, ultimate freebie and a few other games. a few of them even went to the sea to cool off or suntan. was a particularly hot day, and i'm totally charred. in the afternoon we had others joining us, leon steven norman zhihong mulian val yonghui sonya roy, at different times. was really quite a fun day at the beach. i'm sure everyone had his or her own highlight. mine was definitely the 6 of us me linc roy norman steven and adrian attempting the record-breaking one-limb-keep-the-ball-in-the-air. took us a long time and alot of tries(almost gave up so many times!) but finally we managed to acheive our target of keeping it up in the air for 100 hits! so cool!!! haha. we had wanted to stay till only around 3-4pm but by the time we hit the showers it was almost 6pm liaoz. dinner was once again together at harbourfront mcdonalds. a fruitful and fun yet tiring day indeed!

and as if the day's activities weren't enough, i went home and took the car back to ntu with ma to move some of my things back home! dunno how i manage to drive all the way back in my tired mass. to make matters worse, I FORGOT TO BRING MY HALL KEY!! wah lao in my 4 years in ntu this was the first time it happened!!! shite. anyway i ended up climbing into my own room via eric's room(lucky he was around!) and moved my things.then had to lock my door and climb back to his room via the ultra dangerous cliff hanging ledge(funny i didn't think much of it). also gotta thank kee heng for helping me with some of my things.

then at night i still drove out for supper till 2am!!!

and so yesterday i was a wreck with a nose dripping like a tap. ended up resting the whole day and writing all the necessary emails to the different people who're expecting one from me. slept super duper early like around 10+.

and that was my exciting weekend.

countdown to ippt: 2 days
countdown to campusa: 6 days

Friday, May 14, 2004

And Now The Walls Are Bare...

just spent the last 2 hours clearing up the rubbish in my room. goodness gracious i've really got tons of rubbish man. at least 3 trash bags worth of them, and i'm not even done yet. this is just the beginning...

basically cleared the top shelf , the cabinet under the fish tank and various other assorted things lying all over my room.so much rubbish. finally threw away the things i didn't have the heart to throw before(even the original squishie!), and all the useless stuff i kept for just-in-case purposes.

the hardest to clear for today wear the original squishie and my curtains! boo hoo! so sad.

the original squishie is that super-duper huge pirated piyo piyo. like its shaped like a rectangular airplane but its head is piyo piyo. but its so darn cute!!! those of you who were around in year one and two should have lotsa fond memories of it. even got a few good pix of various people hugging it before. haiz. finally dug it out from under my bed(totally went out of flavour after year 2) and sadly dragged it to the rubbish bin. BUT i took a nice cute pic of it, ah, the good times we had...anyone wanna see just lemme know.

the curtains i bought from ikea last year after i moved back from 43 when 44 was undrgoing renovation. lotsa cute animals against a an opaque whitish backdrop. cute! its managed to hold its own a coupla times too. remember the auntie making that stupid curtain joke about me having lotsa pets? yeah. and that was its 15s of fame alright. so sad to have to strip them down.

will be moving even more come next week.

the whole afternoon was spent slogging(okie so it wasn't TOO difficult and it was much faster than the last time i did it) away printing my fyps for hard-cover binding. wasn't very difficult like i said. but spent slightly over $150 for them. so bloody expensive man. haiz. but at least i've finally settled all the fyp admin with the school. just left with handing over my experimental test rig next wednesday.

hopefully i'll pass my fyp. prof wong told me i'll probably pass it, says the moderator thinks i did enough to pass but not get a good grade. but still its damn bloody sickening that i cannot obtain any concrete sense of closure before i leave.

the stupid prof yeo didn't really help much even though he tried to be nice and said i most probably(i hate this phrase already) wouldn't fail. he said he'd help me handle the administrative stuff in the ugly scenario that i have to appeal to do another sem in school, though he can't guarantee that my appeal will be successful in the first place. fuckshite. he says i have to email him asap after my results are out should such an ugly scenario come about. then again i'll be looking after stupid american kids and have little time for email, if i'm lucky i'd get to use the net like once every 2-3days. haiz dunno lah. bottomline is we both agreed that the best case scenario was that i passed everything. wah lan sibeh duh. how nice of him to enlighten me. geez must be the evil thoughts in my head as i stared at his bald pate while he was talking. argh.

tomorrow's campusa orientation at smu. mark and i have agreed we'll walk out early if there're no chio bus in attendence. which brings me to the point as to why there wouldn't be any chio bus going for campusa.

the commitment that this program entails is so long, torturous and tedious that the pretty girls would not dare apply for fear of safety/hassle/loneliness/discomfort and whatever silly reason in a foreign land for so long. but most of all, a chio bu technically should or most probably would have a boyfriend by this stage of their lives who will thereby forbid her to go on such a long trip, chances are laying their relationaship on the line. what choice would they then have but to settle for short yep-organized trips?so there. no chio girls. should there be any then they probably just got dumped.

so what does that leave us with? the good(personality), the bad(looks or/and personality) and the ugly(nuff' said) who're adventurous and very keen to go to the most ulu of places all by themselves(always inviting us, naturally) because they know harm will evade them wherever they may wonder. haha. *evil cackle* and love roller coaster rides *shiver*

okie i'm downright mean. go bathe liao. we'll see tomorrow.

countdown to ippt: 5 days
countdown to campusa: 9 days

A Meeting Of Old Pals

just went to meet up with the old primary school friends in our twice-a-year gathering. this time's outing was attended by a record-low 7 people man, wah lao. only had jinglong noor yonghan hanlong yaoquan lewis. ate at hisamoto, raffles city, then proceeded to father flanagan's, chijmes, for a drink before comine back to hall with lewis.

everyone's finally graduated(hopefully myself included!), and everyone's still bumming around before beginning to find a job.

jinglong, biz ad honours grad, our ex-monitor and the fella who deserves the most credit for making these gatherings a reality will be flying off to shanghai on sunday with an nus biz ad delegation to dunno-what-check-out-what-biz-opportunities there. lucky him. he's bonded to a logistics firm liaoz though.

hanlong, ex-good bud, is still his usual wet blanketty self. forever never change, always likes to see and expose the downside of every idea and opinion and talks like he's seen alot *roll eyes*. anyway he's from nus environmental engine. still bumming around for awhile. waiting to go to cambodia(to build a school i think?) on a yep program(all the rage these days).

lewis, ntu basketball ivp, going to taiwan in a week's time on some ivp tour i think. electrical engine grad. still the cheenapok i've always known. but nice to talk to nonetheless. he was the one who wrote the one poem in my primary 6 autograph book that i can still remember:

when you grow old and ugly,
like old people always do,
don't forget your friend,
who'll be old and ugly too.


sounds a tad funny, but i've remembered this poem since primary 6 haha. its queer yet sensible eh?

yaoquan "the spud", mass comm grad, also another ex-bud, still is the same as ever. i don't think he's changed much compared to the rest of us. but his sense of humour is still well tuned that's for sure. a tad blur at times. only can stick to high-brow humour with him. but a great pal still.

noor, now an sia steward, arts grad. looks even more suave now. talks even more suave. total lady killer(said he was picked up by a milf just a few days back at liquid room! eew!). broken up with wenli liaoz. most in tune with my kinda humour, low or high, i think you gotta be like that if you're gonna charm the skirts off chicks innit?

yonghan, civil engine grad. most distant. nothing much to say about him. very polite and goody. haha. reminds me of myself in primary 6 in fact. haha.

me? i'm still the jokey one who's talking the most and the least serious with anything. haha. i think old impressions are hard to shed. haiz.

nice to meet up and chat and be comfortable anyway. i think such meetings are always good for keeping in touch. else too long never see each other then won't have that much to say to each other and the chats would only be pepper-sprayed with awkward silences. but no, not this regular bunch of us. and maybe that's why i'm so proud to tell people my primary school friends are still meeting up.

Tuesday, May 11, 2004

Uh..Uh..Mm

wah lao eh that's it for me. i think i might fail my fyp. argh *cries* argh argh argh argh....haiz. the presentation went fine then when it was time for the question & answer session, the moderator came up with all sorts of questions asking me to explain my findings and why i had such-and-such results, all of which i couldn't answer!!! in the end i think it was pretty obvious i didn't even know what i was talking about, and the moderator kept saying i should attempt to explain this and that and this and that and this and that again.....argh! boo hoo hoo...dunno how liao knn.

haiz i really dunno what to do. feel so helpless and gotta wait for the 8th of june to get our results. of which i'll already be in the states liao. wah lao what if i gotta repeat one more semester? i don't even know what's the administrative procedures i have to undertake. argh. must...get...ugly...thots...out...of
..head....argh....haiz so sadz...so sad so sad....

and the new interface for blogger sucks too. wah lao this time really no horse run lah knnbccb.....

Monday, May 10, 2004

Happy Mother's Day

knn, just went to bathe and once i took off all my clothes getting ready for the strong blast of the shower, no water comes out. wtf?! something's wrong with my fav toilet. had to go the other toilet on our level just for a decent bath.

went swimming with joe just now. bloody hot weather man. water was nice and cold. was sweating by the time i walked back to my room. geez.

had a wonderful mother's day!

woke up quite late today but got to wish mummy a happy mother's day. took alot of silly pix again with the digicam, but too bad it ran out of battery halfway through. xianz. we celebrated by going to werner's oven for dinner. so fun! its the german restaurant at siglap. damn cosy and homely place.

we each tried to order different unpronounceable german things too! ma had chicken chop (booooring!), fen had lamb chop (german style), dad had lamb knee (haha, i dunno what's it called in german), chuen had pork knuckles (pig's have knuckles?!?!) while i had the jagerschnitzel (Yah-gur-shnit-zel) whahahahah, i think i must've said that like a million times throughout dinner irritating the hell outta everyone else. its actually pork steak with mushroom sauce. and we all shared their famous ox-tail stew! wah was one helluva scrumptuous meal!

it was a good meal not only because of the food but also the fact that the family hasn't eaten together for quite a long time liaoz. so it felt good to eat together after so long. there was so much to talk about! haha. also the funny thing was that the first thing EVERYONE did when our food came was to cut four small portions and pass it to everyone else's plates to try. so cool!!! haha. the pork knuckle was by far the best. haha but on a whole all the dishes were superb lah.

came back afterthat and finished up my fyp presentation. took me like 3 solid hours. xianz. stupid presentation is hindering the excitement in me for campusa. haiz will just be going through the motions on tuesday. haiz. xianz.

countdown to ippt : 10 days
countdown to campusa : 14 days

Sunday, May 09, 2004

The Most Wasted 63cents

was out most of the evening today. went to chijmes with julian alex anson thomas and howren. man u drew 1-1 with chelsea at old trafford. van the man missed a penalty. haiz.

joo and i shared the flanagan's family treat, this lousy meal that's supposed to be for 4 people but the only reason it could feed 4 people was the gigantic amount of potato wedges they served. meat came at a premium. provided you could even find them in that pile of wedges. bloody cheap irish.

and guess who went to eat at chijmes too? none other than my main bro goh chin teck. went to bobby rubinos with his family and relatives. went ot say hi to uncle and auntie. so coincidental. he wanted to meet up with yipeng and dirui but i wasn't up for it since i was with the hall people. maybe another time perhaps.

after the match joo alex thomas and myself went to parklane to play pool. along the way joo told me about his job at standard chartered as a service consultant. mainly just do telecomms services. sounds good and it pays well (approx. $2300 + commission). just needs to be articulate ad well-mannered i suppose. sounds pretty ME. might seriously consider the offer of being granted an interview if joo can rope me in when i come back. see what other options i have lah. i SO do not wanna be an engineer. haiz.

okie and finally the main highlight of this blog. the most wasted 63cents i've ever been robbed of. we finished up around 12 zhun zhun, then went to take the mrt at dhoby ghaut. alas how damn suay when the moment we passed through the mrt gates then they made the announcement that the last train to marina bay had departed. nao hiah. i hadn't even taken two steps after the gates lor! then had to come out and take the bus liaoz. win liao lor. 63cents mind you. 31.2cents for each step i took. wah lao eh i wish i had stepped on shit then went inside man, then maybe i could've gotten my 63cents worth. hmm...maybe i will do just that if ever i step on shit. in fact maybe i might even enter the train!!! muahahahahah!!!!! *evil cackle*

kie must be the midnight pangs. tom's mother's day hope i'll do something nice for mummy.

Saturday, May 08, 2004

The Long Day Is Over

just back from fluids mechanics lab taking pic of the different instruments i used during my fyp tenure. having a digicam is so exciting.

wow. was out the whole of yesterday meeting friends.

woke early in the morning thanks to joe's wake up call. took a bus top the police cantonment complex (pcc - let's go pcc! haha) to get our request for no criminal records form done. the malay auntie taking our fingerprints (alot of prints!) was damn friendly, see my name only ask, "wah, lum ah? you related to the construction company lum chang? *bursts into laughter*" nao hiah, lidat all malays are one bloody big family lor! anyway its a good thing that she was nice and all lah, made up for her lame joke.

afterthat we parked at pearl's centre - this super bloody old building where i swear the tenants saw us and look like its the first time they saw such young people there. oh, and its also home to the infamous yangtze - watch r(a) all you want - theatre. we walkd across to the chinatown hawker centre area to eat this famous frog leg porridge, though i ended up eating the fish with sotong porridge instead. quite good in fact.

by the time we finished up it was time to meet eugenia. was supposed to meet her in orchard, but funnily enough both of us were late, AND we met each other in cityhall, ON OUR WAY TO ORCHARD?! haha how coincidental can it get. had a good laugh over it. we then went to sakae sushi at heeren and ate for like 2 1/2hrs? wow. lots to talk about. afterthat still went to buttercup at orchard cineplex. its that stupid cafe that blocks the 2nd level escalators and the 3rd level ones so that people gotta walk one big round around level two. but it was really cute and nice, with free internet access too. we had a cheese cake and a pecan smtg-smtg and smoothies. so girlie-chill-outie. haha.

following that i proceeded to meet lichun. watched 50 first dates. not too bad a show for a romantic comedy but i gotta give it to rob schneider for always cracking me to bits. i think chun thinks i'm weird for the way i always seem to be laughing alone in the whole theatre. after the show went to esplanade to watch some supposed band major of hers perform at the outdoor theatre. there was this perfomance but the river valley primary school choir. the kids were like super-duper cute!! haha. then had dinner at thai express and then came back school.

upon reaching blk 44 bus-stop the whole bloody cheong gin-gang were there as though they anticipated our arrival. had rejected going cheonging with them 'cos needed to save money for the trip liaoz. and yet i only miss this one cheonging session with them and everyone makes it sound like i'm deserting them all. last wednesday's mambo night alone i had spent $110 liaoz. haiz. emptying pockets. hate the wagging tongues of hall. such a deja vu feeling. but thank goodness i'm leaving it for good soon.

*sigh*

Friday, May 07, 2004

Sore Calves

just back from my first jog after the exams. my fitness is crap.

huge turnout today. lincoln hongwei steven howren and myself. those bums had intended to jog the 199 route FOLLOWED by the 179 route (must be crazy for an after-exam jog). thank goodness howren punctured out halfway during the 199 run, so we all got to stop at the end of that route. lincoln wants to implement a gold-standard ippt regime.he says the extra $400 can cheong 10 times! such incentive. will attempt to follow.

then walked to src to do pull-ups. did 6+2 first time, then lincoln made me do 3+3 the second time, and then finally i managed 1 on my own the third time. not only do my calves ache from the cold examination muscles, now my arms are jelly. haiz. think gotta train more if i'm to get anywhere near that $400. maybe i should just be happy with $200.

campusa countdown: 17 days

michelle emailed again telling me i'll be travelling by train down to granby on the 26th of may. that means i effectively get to spend 1 night in chicago only. shite. looks like i might not be able to meet darrell afterall. reaching on the 25th morning - i have no idea how they're gonna squeeze in orientation. take train on the 26th. reach granby on the 27th. michelle says official camp orientation begins around the 30th, so will have a few days to settle in. she says another nice girl named michelle will pick me up from granby. i sure hope so. hope i won't have much problems being the only asian kid there.

michelle sez #01
<You're right, however, we are a very culturally homogenous camp. We have some diversity in our camper and staff populations, but not a lot. That's why we're excited to have you here this summer--so we can learn more about different cultures and parts of the world!>

well she's jamaican, so i presume she's black. maybe she'll be more apathetic towards how i feel and perhaps be more understanding? hmm, maybe thats why she so darn friendly! hmm. i think too much.

Thursday, May 06, 2004

Senorita I Feel For You

just woke up from a long and shiok nap. had breakfast with mark and then went to aceglobal this morning to collect our passports. breakfast was at boon lay market. we had pig's everything soup and pig trotters, quite yummy to say the least. then mark drove down to town in the drizzle. was really tired so i slept almost the entire journey there.

last night was at zouk for the first time after the exams. had a flaming lambourghini, lotsa vodka lime and lotsa long island. wasted lotsa money. was high but not gone. bad headache. music wasn't too bad but i didn't seem to be in the right frame of mind to enjoy it. found myself fagging a lot.

well at least the exams are over proper liaoz. its not like i'm thoroughly enjoying it at the moment though, what with my fyp presentation coming up on monday, and having to bother about moving out of hall as well as my campusa preps.

so i'm constantly busy with things at the back of my head. and yet i feel kinda lonely right now all alone in my room...hmm, must be because no one's around in the block.

was pouring through the careerhub job interview session website organised during the week i'm flying off. there're tons of jobs for mechanical engineers (>200?) up for grabs. gosh if each and every one is filled that already means 1/3 of my graduating cohort's will already be employed even before i leave ntu. makes me wonder if i'm missing out on a good opportunity to land a proper job before i graduate. think it'll heap some pressure on my finding a job once i get back from the usa. haiz. xianz.

oh well it was a tough decision i had to deal with before i decided i wanted to go for this usa program (even when i tried out for the speedwing opportunities which i didn't get). will be missing my convocation, hall's orientation and dnd, and gone for 5mths. awfully long time the more i think about it.

michelle from camp chief ouray says that the other international student, the colombian kid, got his usa visa application rejected so i will probably the ONLY international student in camp now. i hope they don't start playing games like 'beat the yellow kid' or 'police and (chinese) thief'. on the bright side, she's already arranged for my transport from chicago to granby, which will be by amtrak railway. she says its a full day's ride where i'll get to see lotsa mountains, country and rolling hills (?) so it'll be lotsa fun. i sure hope so if i'm gonna be travelling all alone.

oh well. time to reply my emails. ciao.

Tuesday, May 04, 2004

M140: Engineers & Society

just had the paper this afternoon. wrote till my hand was sore. hopefully will get at least a 'c' grade. went to print my fyp report in the library afterthat. handed it to prof wong. he told me my presentation date was on the 11th, which is next monday. so looks like i gotta prepare for it liaoz. been abit under the weather lately.

here's to everyone who deserves this song:

thank you for loving me by bon jovi

It’s hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes
There’s no one here but you and me
And that broken old street light
Lock the doors
We’ll leave the world outside
All I’ve got to give to you
Are these five words when i

Chorus:
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn’t see
For parting my lips
When I couldn’t breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me

I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The sky’s a different blue
Cross my heart
I wear no disguise
If I tried, you’d make believe
That you believed my lies

Chorus:
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn’t see
For parting my lips
When I couldn’t breathe
Thank you for loving me

You pick me up when I fall down
You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me

Lock the doors
We’ll leave the world outside
All I’ve got to give to you
Are these five words when i

Chorus:
Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn’t see
You parted my lips
When I couldn’t breathe
Thank you for loving me

When I couldn’t fly
Oh, you gave me wings
You parted my lips
When I couldn’t breathe
Thank you for loving me

Monday, May 03, 2004

Home On The Range

haiz.

been staying at home for a tad longer than i should have. its one thing to make a brief cameo and try not to ruffle any feathers, but once the welcome's overstayed, the worms slowly crawl out of the can. every family's got issues and mine's no different. everyone in the family's got their own issues and everyone's got his or her problems and gripes and complains and so do i. i guess i gotta start getting used to the idea of being around alot more to help sort things out...

i suppose there has been a larger-than-expected degree of neglect on my part to have been kept in the dark about so many issues, afterall i've never stayed longer than a couple of days strung loosely together at home eversince i went into the army. that would be 6+ years and if you discountthe transition between moving back from hall and leaving for the land of the free, its actually 7 years. would i have made any difference if i had known of these issues earlier? would i have cared? how much of a difference would i have made anyway?

shan't air dirty linen.

haiz.

but i better start doing something before things get out of hand...

tomorrow's my engineers and society paper. should be able to pass it as long i don't miss it. went through it last night, looks pretty simple current affairs horse shit. afterall i've read the book: defending the lion city by tim huxley when in year two liaoz and thats where alot of the course material was taken from.

its gonna be super busy shit once exams are over. gotta prep for fyp presentation. i think i'll just go through the motions and get my pass can liaoz. gotta get our criminal records checked. gotta clear outta hall, most probably by the 20th may will be moving out. gotta train for ippt on the 20th at maju, aiming for extra $200 pocket money can liaoz. gotta organize the alumni bbq next week and the sentosa outing the following sunday. gotta meet up with brps'91 6a for our annual class gathering on the 17th. gotta buy a good haversack for the trip. gotta begin packing for campusa. gotta go for camp orientation at smu on the 15th. gotta mail back employment form to camp chief ouray. gotta settle whatever clearance and payments required before i leave ntu. gotta start planning for usa holiday since i've already been told that i won't have time to do so in camp!

wanna try to sell my bitch online. wanna cash out all my ers and nss. wanna pour it all into uob's japan growth fund, else ocbc's india opportunities fund. wanna take pix with everyone in hall with my digicam. wanna celebrate sis's birthday. wanna celebrate mother's day. most of all wanna spend more time with loved ones.

leaving on the 24th may night. countdown: 21 days.

camp chief ouray program coordinator, michelle, has sent some interesting things for me to read. here're some snippets:

WHAT SHOULD I EXPECT?(own thoughts in italics)
- to be exhausted -- and be beyond exhausted at times *can dig that*
- to find out how strong my sense of humour really is *this i gotta know*
- to be frustrated *definitely!*
- that the actual money i earn could NEVER adequately pay me for all that i do *somehow i think i went through this phase before*
- to work hard *how honest*
- to work VERY hard *how brutally honest*
- to laugh *phew at least they throw this in*
- to never have thought 9 weeks could go so slowly -- and yet so quickly at the same time *sounds exactly like what i'm feeling about my 4 years in hall!*
- to miss home -- and occasionally wonder why i came *good point*
- to hate the sound of my own name *how bad can 'chris' get? *
- to work very long hours *that's gonna be a pain*
- to never have the exact same view of myself, of others or on life again *ah...the answers to life*
- to have very little free time to myself *noooooo.....*
- to feel like quitting sometimes *shite happens*
- to love getting mail beyond my wildest dreams *a la survivor?*
- to make a huge difference to other people's lives -- and probably never get to see just how much of a difference i've made *sounds like community work*

"a child is a person who is going to carry on what you have started. he is going to sit where you are sitting and when you are gone, attend to those things which you think are important. you may adopt all the policies you please, but how they will be carried out depends on him. he will assume control of your cities, states and nations. he is going to move in and take over your churches, schools, universities and corporations. all your books are going to be judged or condemned by him. the fate of humanity is in his hands. so it might be well to pay him some attention."
- abraham lincoln

haiz. and yet for all its relevance to the camp i will be heading, this passage also teaches some of those who will read this in my blog a subtle lesson or two, and perhaps even myself.

Sunday, May 02, 2004

Like Old JC Times

its a lazy rainy sunday afternoon. weather's really good for sleeping. had a real tiring day out bonding yesterday. haven't done so for a really long time, almost feels like the jc days.

was out with jinde candice esther and her brother, daniel. we went to watch dawn of the dead, whch was kinda crappy and no-brainer. but at least these zombies could run so the thought of it was a wee bit more scary. but otherwise the show sucked and wasn't scary at all. and to think i deliberately sat away from esther cause of her infamous shirt-ripping-neighbours-clothes-when-scared. haha.

before that we all went to lunch at fish & co., tampines. quite a filling meal. daniel ordered something i've never heard of before. the swordfish collar? yup the collarbone area of a swordfish. wow. the dish looked totally impressive when it first arrived, then we realised that the collarbone, whether it was mr swordfish or my own, never did had that much meat to begin with.

after the movie we walked around tampines mall and century square. been eons since i last went there. the biggest change i noticed is that the gap between the two shopping centres has narrowed and been tranformed into a restaurant-laden walkway, not too bad a concept, and it was sheltered all the way somemore. so cool. bloody crowded the whole place still. aside from that we parked ourselves at mcdonald's for ice-cream and chit-chat. feels like old jc times.

afterthat i went over to jinde's place and where he drove me back home to pick up my gear. we had a cage-soccer appointment at bedok cage with ben kuah and his rj friends at 730. in the end we played until 10 when the cage lights went out. was a helluva workout but was super unfit (which explains the aches allover today!) then we had dinner at the nearby tj kopitiam and watched the chelsea-southampton game.

was really really tired but when i got home, somehow decided to play with my digicam for awhile after i bathed. what fun!!! oh did i mention? my parents got me an olympus mju-300 digicam in exchange for the slew of shell petrol points my mom had saved up. hooray! digicams are such fun! so me and bro were spending the whole bloody night taking super boliao pix of ourselves, like the one where i stuff my handphone into my mouth while he stuffs his handphone antenna up his nose. so funny!! *gag,choke* must take more boliao pix with the whole family today. what fun!!!

okie okie. going off to read the newspapers liaoz. feeling kinda sick with super-runny nose what with bro and sis just recovering from that. i think the virus spread over.