Session 4: Emotions

okie. so i almost cried. it wasn't easy but i really did. i hope no one noticed, but i was just too overwhelmed thank goodness it was dark by then.

this week is perhaps the best week i've had at camp since session 1. probably even better. the pawnee cabin is incredible. i really miss those kids already, and they were the most in touch with me and tyler as friends than as counsellors. maybe its the age thing. but think they were sad to go too. haiz.

anyway last night we watched kill bill in the cabin using tyler's dvd player(though thats not supposed to be allowed). dawned on me that it was kinda violent when i heard dylan and mike squeal during some of the more gory scenes. the soundtrack also didn't help haha. still i was memorable for the kids and ourselves.

this whole week especially the later part has been a blast. and you always know when you're having a good time when time just flies by you so very fast. its not as though we did anything special or super exhiliarating. it was essentially the company. tyler as a co, the kids who were mischevious and yet respectful of us , and the activities that allowed us to totally go nuts on each other. haiz.

so by the time closing vespers dawned, it started to well up.

this week i decided to present the malay folk song rasa sayang. i got the malay lyrics from the net and then i penned a madarin verse and an english verse on my own. i sang the chorus and then told the crowd to sing along with me. by the time i sang it hte third time, the audience was singing along liaoz. i think alot of people were touched by it because i said that the lyrics which meant 'feeling good' was a sordid reminder to the campers, cits and staff(yes, some close friends are leaving us) that even when we're about to leave, we should all keep our spirits up and enjoy the time we still have rather than feel sad. people were already crying as the song went along. alot of cousellors presented a little something for the closing vespers. it was one of the longest yet, and still it felt like it flew by so fast. all the staff including myself broke into a melancholic hippie dance during elliot katie steve and kelley's perfomance of 'send me on my way', steve self-written song about cco made sarah staller bawl. its crazy. and my kids were cheering me on while i sang rasa sayang. that's something i won't forget. finally we sang 'you've got a friend' together as a staff as a gift to the campers. the girls were crying and the guys were singing solemnly. its such an emotional song each time we sing it 'cept this time its so much more emotional. by the end of hte song i think we spent a good half hour hugging every other staff member. alot of us neglected our kids(me and tyler included) who found their way to the cabin themselves but it was okie cos its our last chance to see alot of them. alot of people appreciated the song too. haiz. goodbye matt clayton sarah jason clay nick karen, i'll miss you all.

okie so on a brighter note. session 4's over!! yay! we're going to andy's house to chill again later on. some of the staff are camping out somewhere in fraser, dunno if i'll stop by in the evening. next week is mini-camp, a three day camp for really young kids and i'm in cherokee with tyler again(double yay!). also i managed to burn my digital pix into a cd! mega yay!! will tryta load them up asap.

okie so thats it for now. oh and by the way, pix are up! lemme know if you wanna see them. leave your email addy in the comments pageand i'll send it to anyone who's interested!